I’m Not Going To Lie

I’m not going to lie. I’ve been struggling with this blog.
I know it’s been a month since my last blog post.
I’ve got half a dozen blog posts started and abandoned.
I think about this blog every day. I’m committed to it. Why haven’t I posted anything to it?

I’m not going to lie. It would be easy to blame my lack of blog posts on my ADHD.
It’s true that I have trouble focusing and finishing projects.
But it’s also true that I can be infinitely interested in anything that interests me.
Since I get to choose the topics of my blog posts, of course I’m interested with the result that I’m more likely to become hyper-focused than the opposite.

I’m not going to lie. My blog post titled “Trainwreck: My Problems Seem So Insignificant Now…” couldn’t have made it more clear that I am unhappy with the new American administration.
This then, is my real issue.
I previously said that I did not intend to make this a political blog. I never wanted that.

I’m not going to lie.
I keep trying to write another blog post,
but every time I sit down with my laptop, I’m drawn to Twitter.
The political news is compelling, terrifying, and all engrossing.
The words I’ve gathered for a blog post just fade into the background.
Why should anyone care whether or not I made it to work on time,
what I put in my crock pot,
or how my Snickers diet is going
when our president acts like every day is opposites day?
Donald Trump is colluding with the Russians,
banning legitimate media outlets from briefings while promoting unsavory ones,
naming Cabinet members who publicly proclaim their intent to dismantle the agencies they’ve been put in charge of,
promoting his businesses on the taxpayer dime.
Also: Steve Bannon. Say that name and a cold chill runs down my spine.

I wrote my last blog post, My Snickers Diet, only a few days after the inauguration.
This also means I wrote it only a few days after I participated in the largest single day of protest in U.S. history – the Women’s March on January 21.
I didn’t write a blog post about being in the march, because I didn’t want this to become a political blog. But, I want to write about it.
I want to write about the most important cultural/social/political thing that I’ve ever been a part of: the Resistance.
Can I do both?
Can I write about my struggles to develop better sleeping, eating, and living habits and all-around figure out how to be a grownup in my fifties…
…and also write about my experiences and observations associated with Resistance?

I’m not going to lie. I must write about both. Or I will write nothing.

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