Starting Over Every Day, or, I Feel Like I Have a Lot of Issues

How have I been since my last post?

My eldest daughter went off to college.

I’m getting along a little better than I expected I would. The first week, I sort of pretended that she was away at camp. This, the second week, is tolerable because I know I will get to see her in a few days when I and my younger daughter go visit for Labor Day weekend.

My college daughter misses her cat more than she misses us, probably. She asked me to text her pictures of him daily!
My college daughter misses her cat more than she misses us, probably. She asked me to text her pictures of him daily! I’m having fun with the Prisma app, as you can plainly see.

I still have one kid at home, my super-sweet younger daughter, who is graciously allowing me to cling to her a little harder than I might have otherwise. Allowing me, at least for now.

My husband always goes camping Labor Day weekend. This time, however, since he knew our younger daughter and I were planning to go spend time with the college daughter, he wavered. He misses her too. But, he had made the plans, and he always goes, so that’s what he is doing. I didn’t protest too much. I’m looking forward to having a girls’ weekend with my girls.

This is the younger daughter's pooch. It didn't seem fair to let the cat get all of the attention.
This is the younger daughter’s pooch. It didn’t seem fair to let the cat get all of the attention. Also, look how cute he is with that Prisma filter!

Where do I go from here?

I started this blog with the idea of using it to motivate and document my journey to being the person I should be instead of the person I am. A journey I’m taking in the midst of a lot of change in my personal life:

    • Empty nesting, with my children growing up and away from me.
    • Upheaval with the company where I’ve had a career these last 15 plus years, due to corporate acquisition and merger. It’s not my intention to write a blog about corporate middle management, but I spend a hella lot of hours in the office, and it’s likely I’ll mention that now and again.
    • Turning 50 this year, and with that, navigating the dreaded menopause pond. Yeah, I said it. Menopause, menopause, menopause. Mine has been pretty mild overall, but, oh, my body. Yeesh, I don’t recognize it. Outside of pregnancy, I’m at the highest weight I’ve ever been. Menopause and weight gain go together like milk and cookies. Or pontoon boats and water tubes.

    • It's much like being dragged across a lake. The metaphor is lack of control in dangerous waters, not hella fun on vacation, but this is the picture I had so work with me here.
    Menopause is much like being dragged across a lake. The metaphor is lack of control in dangerous waters, not hella fun on vacation, but this is the picture I had so work with me here.

    Which things first?

    I established in my earlier posts that first things first had to be establishing a proper sleep schedule: going to bed on time and getting up on time. I’m happy to say that my going to bed habits are improved, which makes my getting up habits a bit easier. Improved, but not DRAMATICALLY improved. There is still plenty of room for improvement.

    I have so many things to work on – exercising, budgeting, de-cluttering, projects to be completed, procrastination to conquer, time to be managed, good habits to develop, and on and on and on and on – and I intend to use this blog to help me explore why these things are a struggle for me and how to become more successful with them.

    Bear with me. Through the fits and starts, backtracks and trackbacks, and inevitable gaps in regular blog programming due to crazy life being crazy, I think I might be going somewhere with this.

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